Hey, there! It feels kind of weird to be typing out a blog post again, after stepping away from the scene for a few weeks. In fact, since I’ve been gone, WordPress has had an update, so I’m struggling to refamiliarise myself with the platform. It’s like if you took a two-week holiday, and whilst you were away your office had a complete renovation. “Where has the scanner been moved to?” becomes ,“Wait, where the hell are the SEO controls hiding now?”
Hopefully it won’t take me too long to get back into the swing of things. But, the point is, I’m back.
In many ways, this short break has been really helpful. It gave me space to sit with my thoughts and ask some difficult questions. And the time out also provided the opportunity to work on some new creative ideas – many of which I hope to see through in the coming months (some were so hilariously awful, I scrapped them immediately).
However, I’d be lying if I said I was returning to the blog with a completely new lease of life.
This has been the most mentally challenging year of my life, and I feel like I’m at a real crossroads in my career. I love the community that I‘ve built around Coco’s Tea Party, and I’m so proud of everything I’ve achieved over the past 13 years (yes, it really has been that long!). But I’ve felt increasingly disconnected from blogging and social media for quite some time. The landscape is so different from when I first started blogging in 2006, and I’ve lost track of my “why”.
I let the Instagram bubble get the best of me, and allowed myself to become distracted by outside validation, numbers, engagement and the needs of my brand partners. I stopped thinking about what I actually wanted to share, and instead focused on what I thought I should be sharing. In essence, I stopped creating content for the sheer love of it, and over time I lost my passion and sense of fulfilment.
There are so many other factors playing into my current career disconnect, and I won’t get into them all now. But this post is just to say: I’m still a work in progress. I don’t have all of the answers yet.
I’m returning to blogging, but I will be posting less frequently than I used to. And I’m hoping to bring more heart, soul and fun back into my blog features . There will still be shopping wish lists, beauty recommendations and interior updates, but I’d like to bring more focus to real stories and restore a sense of community around CTP.
I hope you’ll continue along for the ride! And thank you, once again, for all of your support and kind words, this year.
Photos by Victoria Metaxas